Okay, now go. Alright, now. Seriously. Go.
Well, I'd like to take just a minute to think this through.
No time. Go.
Ah, shit. Fine.
I feel like I have been having that insane dialogue with myself far too often lately. Change scares me, while at the same time motivates me. As reluctant to it as I may be, for the 2 seconds a day I am willing to admit it, I am so excited (but also mostly terrified) by all that is about to change.
Saying goodbye to 2 amazing colleagues - who not only have taught me more than I probably realize and instilled confidence, but have also become great friends and lifelong mentors - has been challenging. While their new opportunities are so amazing, in a small office - their absence is truly missed. And with their absence I am being provided with the greatest challenge of my career. A big promotion, one I did not expect for years. Responsibility that I have been craving, but content to know would come someday - in the future. Or now. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Realizing that moving out, is in the near future. So, this growing up thing is really happening. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Choosing to do things for myself. Not staying where it's comfortable. Not settling. Making sure I'm getting what I need, and therefore able to give the best of myself in return. Relationships - professional and personal. Tricky. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Deciding to go on a 3 week trip to visit my sister in Japan and brother in South Korea - a trip I can absolutely not afford. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
And then I get to the bottom of this list, look it over - spell check and correct, I realize how kick-ass all this change is. Promotion, new apartment, achievement & adventure. Okay. I'm ready... I think, eh, k, sure, deep breath...and... Set. Go!
Well, I'd like to take just a minute to think this through.
No time. Go.
Ah, shit. Fine.
I feel like I have been having that insane dialogue with myself far too often lately. Change scares me, while at the same time motivates me. As reluctant to it as I may be, for the 2 seconds a day I am willing to admit it, I am so excited (but also mostly terrified) by all that is about to change.
Saying goodbye to 2 amazing colleagues - who not only have taught me more than I probably realize and instilled confidence, but have also become great friends and lifelong mentors - has been challenging. While their new opportunities are so amazing, in a small office - their absence is truly missed. And with their absence I am being provided with the greatest challenge of my career. A big promotion, one I did not expect for years. Responsibility that I have been craving, but content to know would come someday - in the future. Or now. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Realizing that moving out, is in the near future. So, this growing up thing is really happening. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Choosing to do things for myself. Not staying where it's comfortable. Not settling. Making sure I'm getting what I need, and therefore able to give the best of myself in return. Relationships - professional and personal. Tricky. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
Deciding to go on a 3 week trip to visit my sister in Japan and brother in South Korea - a trip I can absolutely not afford. Okay. Get ready, set, go.
And then I get to the bottom of this list, look it over - spell check and correct, I realize how kick-ass all this change is. Promotion, new apartment, achievement & adventure. Okay. I'm ready... I think, eh, k, sure, deep breath...and... Set. Go!
{ I miss Kindergarten - can't wait to do this, new art for the apt perhaps}
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